More than two and a half years ago I started this blog as a way to express a voice inside of me that was abruptly communicating in a language I could understand. When I started writing here I was in a process of discovering who I was. Who was Tresna Lee once I removed myself from a 12 year relationship, the corporate job and a life that was based on what I thought I “ought” to do?

The process of writing, and comments that came from others, was a large part of moving closer to finding that answer.

With time the voice turned inward, my notes became more cryptic and my desire to share intimate thoughts with an unknown audience were overtaken by a mixture of self consciousness and desire to defend my privacy and of those who I was close to.

I still write, but now it remains unpublished. It’s helped me to express myself more clearly (without my internal editor wanting to have a say or pick on my grammar) and it’s actually enhanced my self awareness because I’m not stunted by self censoring.

I read something earlier this year, I now can’t even remember where, but a sentence stuck with me…

“Don’t fall in love with the original idea”.

In the context of the article it related to entrepreneurial endeavours, that the first idea you think is so kick-ass amazing may not be THE idea that has legs enough to stand on.

For the longest while I’ve felt like a neglectful parent, having abandoned this place and letting the months slip by. Occasionally I fret about what is and isn’t visible. I feel like I have to follow through with the original idea. Here I am struggling with things I feel I “ought” to do, rather than what I want to, just as I was three years ago. Holding on out of obligation only stymies what is to come… whatever that may be.

So in the next little while Dear Universe will be packed up and put away in storage, perhaps to be picked over in the future. As too will other projects that once I ferociously fought for but now days can’t (don’t want to) muster the same levels of energy for.

I’m happy with my current way of discovering who I am. In the mean time if you really want to know who Tresna Lee is, perhaps we should have a martini sometime.

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Drink?

September 26, 2011

Friday afternoon gin crisis averted.

 

Wash a tumbler with Absinth and fill it with ice.

Fill the botom of a Boston with ice while you’re at it.

Add in 30ml of a hard Gin, 60ml cloudy apple juice, 3 drops of Plum Bitters.

Stir.

Lovingly stir…

Strain. Drink. Rinse. Repeat.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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